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Friday, October 24, 2003

my stomach's aching.. think i got lao sai..

wahhaa...

tmr's a god day... think im gonna run in the gym after work then meet jillene for our rendevous party tomorrow night..

monks anyone?? haha.. where the broke pple go... haha...

im gonna drink till i pass out man...

zenna boxed the green apple at 1:13:00 AM

Thursday, October 23, 2003

ITS THE HARDEST THING I'LL EVER HAVE TO DO
TO LOOK YOU IN THE EYE AND TELL YOU I DONT LOVE YOU..

ITS THE HARDEST THING I'LL EVER HAVE TO DO..
TO TURN AROUND AND WALK AWAY,
PRETENDING I DONT LOVE YOU...

zenna boxed the green apple at 1:55:00 AM

i need to blog everything tts on my mind if not i know im sure to go mad...

it is not something tt im doing on purpose to actually tell u how im feeling...

i need to blog.. tt's what my blog's here for... yar??

i need an outlet to shit out everything's thats in the fucked up head of mine..

zenna boxed the green apple at 12:43:00 AM

hey jillene!!! thanks babe!! for eveything.. the music.. the layout!! *muahhHH*
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are u doing the 'cold' thingy or is it cause u cant be bothered with me anymore???

or are u already busy with someone else??

zenna boxed the green apple at 12:38:00 AM

Wednesday, October 22, 2003

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zenna boxed the green apple at 5:37:00 PM

i dont wanna be feeling this way....

what are you thinking of ??

dont treat me this way... its so difficult for me... i dont know what to do

i feel stuck.

i know what i'm SUppOSED to do.. but i cant seem to be doing it.

im just so stuck on you...

i know im not supposed to be feeling this way. but i really cant help it.

i still think of you. i miss you.

i shouldnt be doing it.. i dont want to be doing it since things are the way it is now.

i wouldnt mind doing it if things were to get back to how it used to be...

this is the very first time im feeling so shity over stuff like that... guess its retribution man...

i just cant get u off my mind..simple as that... why??? there's just too many things that keeps reminding me of you.

i try to make myself as busy as possible...to distract myself from thinking of you...
but at the end of the day... i WOULD STILL thnk of you.. even at the very sec before i fall asleep...

that's how much i really love you..

did i mention that the first thing that pops into my head once i wake up is always you?? seriously... why is it like that??

newaes, i think things are better for you... you seem fine with with how things are between us.. somehow like u've already gotten over the whole thing...

i guess that's just the way things are yar?? it's always easier for the person who initiates the entire thing... sometimes, i wished i HAD been the one who initiated the DAMM THING... so that it would have been soooo much easier for me to let go....

that's good.at least ONE person is feeling better.. i dont know...

i know it takes time... and i thnk it gonna be a long time....

i miss you.. and im thinking of you.. and WILL be thinking of you...

arent u glad that u've added one more person in that list of urs knowin that there's one more person out there who's always thinking of you??

whatever. this sucks. fuck.

im sure u know how much this FALL hurts for me yar??

*ouch*... my heart's aching again.

zenna boxed the green apple at 7:52:00 AM

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zenna boxed the green apple at 7:30:00 AM

Tuesday, October 21, 2003

yet another 'i feel shity so i need to blog' morning... sighs...

last night i got back home around 2.30am...again.. went out with my classmates...

haha..had karaokae at kbox parkway..aGaIn.. tell u... it was fun..

my classmates were singing and there was one who was singing 'machiam' opera like that can.. but she was good lar.. seriously..

there were so many songs that were sOOoOO sad...

and i heart ached soooo much when 'everyday i love you' was on.. awwww man... soo pain.. especially "if i asked, would u say yes?"...brings back memories..

sighs..

fuck..

this sucks.

Falling
Alicia Keys

I keep on fallin' in and out of love with you.
Sometimes I love ya', sometimes you make me blue.
Sometimes I feel good, at times I feel used
Oh baby u know Darlin' makes me feel so confused

I keep on fallin in and out of love with you
i never love someone the way i loved you

I never felt this way
How do give me so much pleasure cuz me so much pain
Just when i think ive taken more than would a fool
i kept fallin' back in love with You

I keep on fallin in and out of love with you.
i never love someone the way i loved you. "

zenna boxed the green apple at 10:38:00 AM

Monday, October 20, 2003

sighs. im thinking again...

why??

im so sleepy.... but im waiting..

silly girl...

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argHHh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

zenna boxed the green apple at 1:42:00 AM

Sunday, October 19, 2003

ive been so lazy to blog recently...

have been coming home late too... erm.. say.. 2 plus for the past few days?? haha..

last night i reached home around 2.30 am..

nothing's been happening much though..

yesterday was mel's birthday.. walked around orchard and then played pool till around 12?? haha...

had supper at LIPS bristro.. its so cool that they open till 3!!

LIPS always play all the nice and sad songs at the wrongest time!!! haha...

jillene, su an, mel.. thanks for being there when i needed u guys yar... thanks for being so patient... :)

i totally couldnt take it any more.. i was trying very hard not to .. but i couldnt stop myself...

its hurts so much tt's why..

haha.. mel... did u know that ur hair went in my mouth when i was at ur shoulders?? haha.. i had to like keep pulling hair out from my mouth.. haha...

oh yah.. and i had so much fun playing with "THE HAIR".. hahahaha.. so crappy..

thanks babies... love u guys so much...

another level
from the heart>>> --- i heard this song at LIPS.. i thought of YOU..

"I know you've heard these words a hundred other times before
And you've been hurt and so your heart has chose to close the door
Love broke your heart and brought you lies.
Look in my eyes
You'll see a love that's deep and true.
Tender and strong and all for you
You can trust this love. Honest, that's the honest truth

From the heart, I'm giving you everything, everything
From the heart I promise you that I'll be there
I'll be there to love you from the soul
I'm showing you all I feel, all I feel is
From the heart, from the heart

And when you reach for love you'll only need to reach for me
These arms will never let you down. They're staying around
I'll walk with you through every storm. I'll keep you safe,
I'll keep you warm
And you'll have no doubt
You're the one I'm living for

From the heart (from the heart baby)
I'm giving you everything (oh) everything (giving you everything)
From the heart (my heart)
I promise you that I'll be there (I'll be there for you)
I'll be there to love you from the soul
I'm showing you all I feel, all I feel (I'm showing you)
All I feel (all I feel) is
From the heart, from the heart (from the heart)

I'll provide the love you need.
Just trust my touch
Believe in me I'll never make you cry
Givin' all I got with all I got inside

From the heart
I'm giving you everything, everything (giving you everything)
From the heart (from my heart)
I promise you that I'll be there (I'll be there to love you, love you, ooh)
I'll be there to love you (ohh) from the soul (my soul)
I'm showing you all I feel (all I feel) all I feel (all I feel) is
From the heart (the heart) from the heart
Ooh, from the heart, from the heart..."

zenna boxed the green apple at 11:03:00 AM